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Tuesday, September 28, 2010

I keep wondering whether it's ever going to get any easier.  I keep hoping, but it hasn't happened yet. Will this pain ever go away, subside? It's a pain so pervasive I sometimes feel like I'm drowning in it... like I can't breathe. Why does not having this feel like a loss? I've never had it, so why does it feel like a part of me has been ripped out?

Saturday, September 11, 2010

We all want something we can't have.
Gotta believe the pain will go away.
Couldn't cope if I didn't hold on to that hope.
So hard to let go of the dream.
Cling to the thought that somehow things will change.
That someday the pain will just go away.

Tuesday, September 7, 2010


I find it amazing how all encompassing the reality of undesired childlessness can be. Our society values family more than most anything else. I suppose it should...I just wish it wasn't constantly in my face. Advertisers target moms and dads; people's conversations revolve around their children; magazines and television shows cater to moms and moms to be. I don't want to be the center of the universe, but can I at least be included in it. My vote, my tax dollars, my purchases and my opinion are all just as valid as a breeders! Then why am I dismissed as a lesser part of society? This is not a rhetorical question... I really want to KNOW!