Tuesday, September 28, 2010
I keep wondering whether it's ever going to get any easier. I keep hoping, but it hasn't happened yet. Will this pain ever go away, subside? It's a pain so pervasive I sometimes feel like I'm drowning in it... like I can't breathe. Why does not having this feel like a loss? I've never had it, so why does it feel like a part of me has been ripped out?
Saturday, September 11, 2010
Tuesday, September 7, 2010
I find it amazing how all encompassing the reality of undesired childlessness can be. Our society values family more than most anything else. I suppose it should...I just wish it wasn't constantly in my face. Advertisers target moms and dads; people's conversations revolve around their children; magazines and television shows cater to moms and moms to be. I don't want to be the center of the universe, but can I at least be included in it. My vote, my tax dollars, my purchases and my opinion are all just as valid as a breeders! Then why am I dismissed as a lesser part of society? This is not a rhetorical question... I really want to KNOW!